This last week has been one of the greatest, most chaotic, and memorable weeks of my life. I got off work around 1am, then drove to meet up with the boys. We had a quick three hour nap for the night, got up and started our journey to St Louis. It’s crazy thinking about the first few hours of the trip and how we all bonded so quickly. I already consider those two like my brothers.

We started out the day on the road watching the sun come up and listening to City and Colour albums. We were all still silent from the morning grogginess,and it was then that everything really started to hit me. I was finally making my childhood dreams a reality. Sure, it was only a trip to Missouri and back, but it was the start to my adventurous summer where I’ll be traveling the country and making amazing once in a lifetime memories.

There are so many people on this planet with no desire to travel or see the amazing things that God has created. With one life, I constantly feel the pressure and limitations of time. I need to see everything I can while I’m still here. There are so many beauties and wonders of this world that I have yet to see and it drives my soul crazy. Even with this constant urge to go and see and do, I have never been at more peace in my entire life. Everything I own may be packed up in my car, and I may be sleeping on dirty futons, but it’s all worth the life that i’m currently getting to live. It still blows my mind that i’m doing what I love and what makes my heart so happy, and i’m getting paid to do it.

Justin hit the nail on the head with this one. I can’t wait to spend the summer getting to know that kid.

“Summer/life goal: be poor in material and earthly things. Become rich in mind, body, soul, and relationships.”

I’ve tried writing all day and failed. I can’t convey my thoughts the way I want to. The conclusion to my jumbled mind is simply, I can’t wait until the day I have a family of my own. Finally a place to belong, be comfortable, and share love. A real home life. A home. 

One day.

Well, I wish today would have gone a little differently…but I’ve gotta stop being a princess & learn to adjust.