Lacey Ann

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Wed, 08 May 2013 01:58:15 -0500

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my future, which is really no surprise, but situations...

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 15:45:00 -0600

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my future, which is really no surprise, but situations that i’ve been place in, in the last few months, have made me consider it even more. I know that I don’t want to live like this forever. To be quite honest, I don’t want to be living like this at all. I’m currently in a state of discomfort, both with my physical surroundings and also with my personal life. I plan to escape, physically, as soon as my lease is up and hopefully upon the arrival of a certain acceptance letter. To where? I have no idea because what I had once been so sure about, I no longer am. I don’t know where to go from here, even if I am able to go where ever I desire. My heart aches constantly at the unstable environments and relationships I am enveloped in.

I’ve been thinking about the topic of marriage a lot mainly because the majority of my friends are either getting engaged, planning weddings, or are currently in a marriage. I’ve also been thinking about the subject simply because I am a young “single” woman living on her own, which is terrifying. I have taken on all the responsibility of my bills and expenses on my own, while trying to finish school. This has made me start to process things a little slower and pay more attention to detail and consider that may be why so many young couples are getting married so soon, or at least living together. It makes things much easier financially. I am in no way condoning this type of reasoning because I believe a marriage is much much more than financial ease, obviously. Of course with these thoughts come the erratic turning of gears in my mind which causes a ricochet of thoughts that one may describe as ADD, joking, but really. So with my thoughts bouncing off one another I also started to consider the amount of people I know who are engaged and how quickly that came to be. Initially my first thought is how ridiculous that is. So many young couples are getting engaged after only dating a few months or a mere year. Normally I would roll my eyes at this but as I stated, my thoughts are slowing and my perspectives are wandering. What makes people decide to spend their lives together so quickly, aside from unplanned pregnancies? What really happens for a couple to decide, after such a short period of time, that they never want to be with anyone else? Does it take a man just being THAT crazy in love with a girl that he decides he can no longer live without making her his wife?

Upon thinking of these things I, being the girl I am, relate back to my own relationships. I wonder to myself why I never made someone crazy enough in love to want to marry me? What is so wrong with me that the topic of marriage has never been spoken of in a serious manner? Sure I’ve heard my fair share of “I want to marry you someday’s” ..come to think about it, I’ve heard that out of every boys mouth since my first 15 year old relationship. That is such an empty phrase to me now considering the amount of times i’ve heard it. Being in a three year relationship the thought of marriage happens, and towards the last year I had grown tired and frustrated wondering when that time would be. Was I not someone that a man would want to spend the rest of their life with? Was I not grand enough for someone to whole heartedly pursue like I was seeing from all of my friends? Also, why is it that upon leaving said relationships those boys decided to move so quickly into marriages with other girls. What made them decide so quickly that they wanted to marry those girls, and what did I lack that never brought forth that type of conclusion for them?

I’m thankful I was never married before, even though the thought did cross my mind. Being in a relationship that long it happens. However, I was never asked and thankfully it worked out in my favor. That relationship ended and a much better life unfolded for me. What if I had been one of those that had decided to marry after a few months or even a year though? That would have been such a huge mistake, considering that relationship did not end up being a very healthy one. How then do so many individuals make that decision? Of course a completely different topic would be the amount of those relationships that also end just as quickly in divorce.

I suppose i’ll never truly know the answers to my questions because everyone’s situations and intentions are different. I have come to the conclusion however that being engaged after a short time isn’t so bad. I think if a man is so in love with a woman and decides he wants to marry her that getting engaged is an obvious decision. I also believe in cherishing the engagement period. I don’t want to get engaged and decide to marry within a few months, thus spending that entire period of time stressing about planning a wedding. I want to have a long enough engagement to actually ENJOY it. I wouldn’t mind even being engaged for a few years. These are however just mere thoughts and fantasies of mine that i’ve had for years now. I’ll continue to wait and wonder and watch the marriages and divorces surrounding me. I know that God has someone planned for me and although I can be quite impatient at times, I do have faith that I will someday find the man who I am perfect for and who has been waiting his whole life to pursue me. Someday i’ll be that girl who someone is just THAT crazy in love with.

“Masculinity is absolutely amazing! Men are made to be bold and adventuresome and creative...

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 01:17:09 -0600

“Masculinity is absolutely amazing! Men are made to be bold and adventuresome and creative and heroic. They envision grand things and then build them. They work hard and long and get dirty and even get hurt and still keep on going. They protect weaker beings. They aren’t afraid to ask hard questions, and stick with it until they find the answers. They challenge each other.

Femininity is absolutely amazing! Women are made to be lovely and gentle and creative and sensitive to those around them. They take disorder and make it orderly, then add a touch of beauty. They patiently do things that are necessary for the health and happiness of others, sometimes over and over and over. They laugh and sing. They encourage. They comfort.

My favorite word for masculinity is “strong.” My favorite word for femininity is “soft.”

These words aren’t, however, opposites. The opposite of strong is weak. The opposite of soft is hard.

Thus, while men can also be soft (in a masculine way), the problem today is that men are becoming weak. And while women can be strong (in a feminine way), they are instead becoming hard.

If you remember the story of the fall, God’s curse on Adam was that he’d have to work a lot harder to make a living. God’s curse on Eve was that she’d want to control her husband (that’s what the phrase “desire for” means in Genesis 3:16), but he would rule over her.

And so we’ve lived unhappily ever after with these reversed instincts. Men avoid responsibility and women take over. Or men become harsh and demanding, and women back away. Or women try to reform men and men back away. This is all pretty familiar stuff to most of us.”

-This is so so so so good.

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Fri, 30 Nov 2012 16:34:07 -0600

http://nativewillow.tumblr.com/post/20474664932 Posted 8 months ago. Still disgusts me.

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 15:16:04 -0600

http://nativewillow.tumblr.com/post/20474664932

Posted 8 months ago. Still disgusts me.

my bf still is friends with girls he use to date and it makes me really upset. What do i do??

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 15:12:00 -0600

I’ve answered this type of question before on here. You can check for that for a more detailed answer but basically it comes down to the type of relationship you and your boyfriend have and also the type of relationship he had with them. It’s going to be different for everyone, but I think it can be extremely disrespectful in most cases. Just try talking to him about it and let him know how you feel. There may be absolutely nothing there, but if he respects how you feel he may choose to talk to them less.

THIS. Is why I miss working at URBN. Seriously the funnest...

Tue, 27 Nov 2012 14:06:16 -0600

THIS. Is why I miss working at URBN. Seriously the funnest company.

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Fri, 23 Nov 2012 22:34:29 -0600

Your really pretty. Its not like normal standard pretty though. Very interesting and different pretty.

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 19:06:29 -0600

Thanks…I think?

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Sat, 17 Nov 2012 21:42:12 -0600

Some day, when i’m much older and have settled down with a family, I want to own a quaint...

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 21:39:00 -0600

Some day, when i’m much older and have settled down with a family, I want to own a quaint little tea shop bakery. I’ll have a variety of yummy teas and bake delicious treats all day. There will be tables topped with interesting little books to fill every reader with inspiration and a small corner stage for aspiring artists to perform. I have the absolute most adorably perfect name for it too. Oh dream life.

Guess who misses the hottest most desired girl in Dallas Texas? SPACEY LACY!

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 19:29:56 -0500

Oh shut up. I don’t even live in texas anymore lol but I miss you too…even though you always spell my name wrong ;)

I’ve been praying for patience, strength, and guidance. This morning after another ridiculous...

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 10:46:24 -0500

I’ve been praying for patience, strength, and guidance. This morning after another ridiculous night of no sleep and plenty of family drama, I received some answers. I don’t want to be in Oklahoma. I would love to graduate from OU. Neither of those aspirations seemed possible, and most definitely not concurrently…now they both are. Major decisions to be made.

m-guzei: Riverview #water #river #rock #landscape #view...

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 10:40:08 -0500

m-guzei:

Riverview
#water #river #rock #landscape #view #austria #autumn #wachau

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Thu, 01 Nov 2012 22:46:51 -0500

Prayers to Kenadee. She lost the most today.

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 19:23:36 -0500

Prayers to Kenadee. She lost the most today.

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Sun, 28 Oct 2012 04:14:17 -0500

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Sat, 27 Oct 2012 17:30:50 -0500

but i thought you date austin carlile

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 15:52:37 -0500

What? haha is this a joke? It’s been years since I even spoke to him.

This verse always seems to slap me in the face. I am taken care...

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 23:45:28 -0500

This verse always seems to slap me in the face. I am taken care of. All of my troubles are taken care of. My fear and anxieties are pointless. I need only be still.